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28 March 2007 @ 03:33 pm

It is already the start of vacation for me.
Thank god.
but i really feel nervous.
i am afraid of failing.
and it seems that flowcharting is gonna ruin everything i dream of.
i don't know what will i do if i do fail.
i know i am gonna break down and cry
but what could i possibly do after knowing that i failed.
people help me
oh god this is getting hard for me.

Current Location: a place full of guilt

Current Mood:

nervous

Current Music: Victims Of Love - Good Charlotte

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24 March 2007 @ 04:06 pm

space monkeys attack

3 reasons i am hyped up today

1. William Beckett icon -dies-
2. Jack Marin made me laugh
3. the vid of Thnks Fr Th Mmrs

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14 March 2007 @ 04:11 pm

soo much to think about

MCR = love
Jay Leno performance = aaah gives me a heartattack
MCR wins at life.

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12 March 2007 @ 04:36 pm

best convo everrrrrrrrrr

Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: hey
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: hi
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha you like pornomime?
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: uh huh
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: that crazy thingy haha drive me nuts
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: spencer woot! woot!
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha that film clip is so odd.
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: oh yeah
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: it is not what i expected
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: yeah I agree
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: i am expecting a much dirtier videp mwahahaha
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha same
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: I was hoping ryden
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: you are reading my mind
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: massive ryden action
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha pretty much
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: that would have been very ftw
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: haha
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: and spence & jon were doing idk
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: but yeah i want a massive ryden action woot! woot!
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha nice
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: whooo at ryden
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: that would win vid of the year
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: it would
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: but i doubt it cause fersher it would be banned on mtv
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha, it wasnt as vulgar as ryan made it out to be
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: that suckd
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: *sucked
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: if that would be the video that would be my fave vid ever next to miss murder
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: XD
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: massive ryden action with ry's sex hurrrrrrr
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: oooooh
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: that would be awesome
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: oh add pete in there as well
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: and jack marinnnnnnnnnn
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: and becket
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: ooh yes
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: and andrew omg!!!!!!!!
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: hmm and Gabe
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: and shaant
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: yes
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: and Oli Skyes
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: cause he's just hot
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: oh and Sonny Moore
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: oh yeah i know oli but don't know from which band he is or if he is in a band
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: he is from a band
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: and also matt good, way brothers, and frank iero
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: a screaming band
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: its all gah
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: ooh yes
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: what band is he in?
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: Bring Me The Horizen
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: ooh i heard it before
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: haha and he is sooo hot
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: god a party full of hot boys
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: that would be pornomime the BEST one ever
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: apart from the mime part
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: haha!
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: yeah right
Julienne Catastrophe [PORNOMIME FTW]: i am so gonna save that conversation mwahahaha
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: haha put it on your myspace
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: under
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: BEST CONVO EVER
Talie-Maree | It takes alot of money to look this cheap |: cause we're just that cool

Current Location: J-walk mansion ftw

Current Mood:

bored

Current Music: buzz sound

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10 March 2007 @ 12:46 pm

J-walk wins at life

Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
but lets not be mean, no matter how mean they are
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:

Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
Jon Walker would not approve.
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
but eyah they are soooomean
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
and i don't wnt j-walk to be mad or something
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
Haha, I said it like Jon was watching us
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
maybe he is...
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
like a god
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
yeah...
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
little songs made about Jon
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
'Jon I lift your name on flipflops'
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
XD
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
'Jon I love to sing your basses'
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
XD
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
I'm making a Jon religion now
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
oh
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
jon is a cult
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
Hahah
Me__ Iwantsomeoneprovocativeandtalkative says:
Jon-aninty
Julienne [i'm fighting urges to fall again yet i stumble] says:
ooh

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03 March 2007 @ 06:14 pm

sinking ships

i am bored.
made a new site.
visit it people.
spamming is much appreciated.
http://sceneisthenewcult.blogspot.com

Current Location: under the ground

Current Mood: accomplished

Current Music: Thunder - Boys Like Girls

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23 February 2007 @ 04:16 pm

bulletproof loneliness

Intense week so far. Been pretty busy with things that do matter. I just turned my life into a nightmare. I don't feel like living anymore. I am just like anyone else with so much thing to do but wants to escape the real world.

Bad news: I still can't think straight.
Was that a bad thing or not?
Probably it is.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
I've been like this for several days. Somebody help.
This is sooo weird like hell.
They say "laughter is the best medicine". For me it is not.
Music is not helping me too when it is supposed to be therapeutic.

School is such a bitch.
Nothing good comes to my mind through listening to that music box of yours.
People are being indecent to my eyes.
Nothing good comes out of their mouth.
They are just bunch of kids who doesn't know how it is to be hurt.
They say they are hurt.
They only got hurt because of love.
But that is not life.
For me life is a never ending suffering.
You might think they like you but when you turn your backs on,
they are saying bad things against you and i witnessed that for so manyyears.
And why can't I escape that fate.
To be honest I don't really know.
Maybe it is just part of my fate and one day all of those will end with just a snap.
Soon you will understand.

Why am I saying this?
Cause that's what I feel.
Broken. Defeated. Lifeless.
I don't want your sympathy so don't.
Don't think I want you people to comfort me.
I don't and never will i ask you to do that for me.

Current Location: chilling at the J-Walk mansion

Current Music: Face Down - REd Jumpsuit Apparatus

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18 February 2007 @ 11:47 am

truth hurts worse

It;s these times when i felt like dying. Nothing seems to matter anymore. I feel so numb. I can't feel that I am still breathing. I could not barely open my eyes in teh morning. Hoping the day would end so soon. this place makes me feel alive i swear.

Chrismas New year
But I am not Chinese
So what's the use of celebrating.
And i got lots of schoolwork uunitl tuesday
I can't believe I have a life
After that, idk
And i still have a reporting up this week.
I become so tired thinking of things.

I need a new haircut
My fringes are getting ugly
I am thinking of cutting it.
Nah gave up the idea
I am afraid of what I can do with my hair
I want it blunt
I want to dye my hair red, streaks of red
I already pictured myself with red hair
And i think it's awesome.
Hair iron someday give me one
Damn i have so many demands.

Current Location: a world bounded with deadlines

Current Mood:

excited

Current Music: Risque Listen Listen - CIWWAF

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16 February 2007 @ 05:16 pm

i demand an apology

I heard someone said it before
Friends come and go
Friendship doesn't last forever
Now I am starting to believe that shit
It's not like I don't believe in friendship anymore
You are sooo wrong
Friends are still my precious treasures that I possess
But she just ruined it all.

This day could be the greatest ever
Cause Alexia and the rest of the LD boardies...
...Made me happy today.
I hate to say it.
But sometimes I prefer having online friends
Than having real ones.
I don't know.
Probably it's just me.
I feel so sick of her.
I hate everything that she does.
She is not worth of everything that I could do for her.

This morning i felt so happy.
Not because I am having problems callling internationally
Yeah it's now my major problem since today
I think Ryro stalkers would be returning
I miss those days
Specially the online sleepover that we had
Best thing ever.

But the drawback is she fuck up with me.
I really do mean it,
I don't mean to offend her
But there is no proper word to say how I feel
Someday she will realized how bad she is
Flirting with everyone
She thinks she is someone
She thinks she is that cute
But no she is not
Her personality stinks
Her hair does suck, her fringes are not that pretty unlike mine

What I wanted to do is to take revenge
And this is the best way to do it
If she will read this I know she won't know it's for her
I want someone to chop her hair, stole her makeup, make her suffer.
I just have enough with every single shit she could ever do.
I hope people will soon realize how much of a bitch she is.

nuff said.

Current Location: place with no one to cry on

Current Mood:

annoyed

Current Music: Dare You To Move - Switchfoot

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14 February 2007 @ 11:46 am

we have smiles on our faces

Happy VALEN~~tines~~SPENCE Dayyy!

Valenspence is the new Valentines day.
Lolol.
God I can't think straight again.
I don't know.
I haven't ate lunch.
Prolly that's why.
I need something to make me laugh.
Hmm lurking on patd lj community could be a great idea.
Haha!
I need to see that picture of Ry & pete in the benz.
Mwahahaha.
Exchanging body heat lolol.

School no classes for 2 hours.
Why did no one told me.
Blah blah!
I hate those people.
Gaah except for a few people.
Don't care if they hate me.
Whatever don't care.
Please don't fight.
It just breaks my heart.
Whenever I see you all like that.
You might think I don't care but I do.
Cause I love you all.
And if you want me to hug you again I will.
If that would make you feel better.

Aww look at the ld banner.
It is so colorful.
Most appropriate color for the day.
Haha!
I am so lazy.
Last Sunday, I listened to IOH for more than 6 times.
Lolol.
Can't believe I did it.
Aww FOB is making me happy again.
And my classmate is crazy over Pete!
Mwahaha!

Ciao.

Current Location: hiding inside the yellow checkered cars

Current Mood:

blah

Current Music: Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy

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07 February 2007 @ 03:18 pm

message so unclear

You talk to me like no damage has been done. I hate to say that it still hurts. It is still breaking my precious heart in shattered pieces. You made me cry once and never will i ever shed a tear for you again.

I am regaining back my voice. Yay! I feel so happy. But still I got colds which is killing me. In the classroom, it was cold. The airconditioner is alive again making me shiver.

Aww Fall Out Boy made me happy this week. The CD is already out which is a good thing. But I doubt it is already in here. That is quite impossible for an international CD to be out here on the same day it was released. Never gonna happen. But yeah I was able to listen to everything in the cd yesterday. OMG! It was freaking love. Thanks to Island Records.

The vid for CTOL is soooooo funny. Happy Tree Friends yeah they are back and I am so happy to see them in that vid mwahahaah!

Current Location: sitting in a chair with no desk

Current Mood:

chipper

Current Music: Different - Acceptance

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05 February 2007 @ 01:32 pm

Halloween in the midst of February

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down.
(And now that I'm gone) Try to forget me and just move on.
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now,
(But you knew all along) Try to forget me and just move on.

Look it is Monday and yeah we don't have classes. Thanks to the parade. And yes it murdered my feet. It happens to me a lot. I feel so miserable at times. You see.

The parade kind of cool. Except that I want to be Wednesday but the fact that my hair needs to be on braids. No wai! Not even gonna happen in a miliion years. I spend lots of time trying to make my hair look good though it is wavy. and then they will make me do that. Noooo! I am sick of curls ya know.

But yeah major news i want to bash his head cause he is uberly cute! Especially in that tie. Gosh he made my day. I am supposed to hate him but now i don't cause he is super sweet to me and sooooooo mean to me at the same time. Damn he always smiles which is good.

Current Location: stuck and bored in school

Current Mood:

complacent

Current Music: Too Little, Too Late - Jojo

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27 January 2007 @ 03:27 pm

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now if mcdonalds starts selling breakfast all day, we would be fine...
- Jon Walker

The wounds are starting to heal up. Have finished 6 out of 8 exams. And I don't feel good about it. 2 more exams and I'm done. Institution activity will be on Sunday. I will be restless for 2 straight weeks. I got a lot of stuffs to do. Gawd, I can't believe I have a life.

Whew! My comeback weeks is the craziest. I tried to finish all the exams this week but it's impossible. I spend a lot this week paying over some school stuffs. I am so broke. And I need money. As in lots of it. Aside from that, they must've missed me. They keep on buggin me. They should be more careful or else Alexia is gonna kick them in the ass [I haven't forgot about that]. Next, Lacoste shirts flooding our room. YOu won't convince me to buy those. It might be fake. And the rise of the Sudoku insanity.

Me and him, yeah were talkin now. Unlike before. KFC must've bridged the gap. I am certainly thankful to that fast food chain. At least he's now trying to make a conversation. Monday will be the greatestttttttttt.

Current Location: under the hilltop

Current Music: Silver Bullet - Hawthorne Heights

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22 January 2007 @ 04:57 pm

crash

i tear my heart openi sew myself shut, my weakness is that i cared too much and the scars remind us that the past is real i tear my heart open jus to feel

woot! Woot! I am back. I miss this place so much I haven't used the internet for ummm *counting* 13 days. Omfg!I can't believe that I was able to stand life without internet.

So what the hell happened with e?Well I got sick, my first in007. Just for the record, I got some stupid chickenpox. 2007 must've hate me. Now I'm covered with serious scars right now. *screams*I can't wear skirt and sleeveless shirts for the mean time. *sih* This scar needs to go away and fast.

I got some serious reviewing to do i swear.

Current Location: funeral of your dreams

Current Mood: artistic

Current Music: Seven Black Roses Chicosci

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08 January 2007 @ 03:58 pm

twisted fate

It’s Disgusting. Why would people idolize someone who doesn’t do anything and saying you’re a model/photographer with a digital camera and photoshop does not count as an artist
-Ryan Ross

3rd post for 2007. Wohoo I am enjoying this you know. This relieves boredom and tireness as a matter of fact.

Next Monday is our exam. How awesome. No I hate it. I need to save money. I have something planned for next Saturday involving my hair. I hope mom would get her money cause i want to go shopping. The OXYGEN blouse Uh huh. I want it in my hands now and so as the shoes, skirts, pants, new cellphone and an i-pod. Man that was a lot.

Monday - Calculus
Tuesday - Literature & English
Wednesday - Accounting & Sociology
Thurday - noexamsyay
Friday - Marketing & Economics

Waa today is bad except this morning was really good. School hours gave me headache. Marketing, fucking test. Accounting ahh kill me. Where the hell did Php 120,000 originated? Calculus, more numbers. I hate long. solutions. sociology, i am not paying attention since i was hungry.

Awesome people of LJ, if you love the band Panic! At The Disco especially Ryan Ross *drools* please join our awesome forum created by one of my bestfriend Gina. We currently have 15 members, so I am encouraging you all to join. The boards is only 2 days old.

clicky

Current Location: the elevator loveeeeeeee

Current Mood:

annoyed

Current Music: screaming guys

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06 January 2007 @ 03:24 pm

just pull the fucking trigger

Hey, lush, have fun
It's the weekend now
Forget me it's that simple

That is the only thing I can think of. Aside from the fact that I need to redo my nails since it is now so ugly. I need a black nail polish now. And also those stuffs I found in the mall. I need lots of money.

It's the weekend baby and my schedule is fully loaded darn it! Good thing no classes on Tuesday which is Monday night on the other side of the world. Yay! I would be able to talk with the stalkers and to anyone who is on. You know I want to talk to you darling so lets make the most out of it. XD Please no assignments. Let me enjoy my rest day.

Current Location: underworld

Current Mood:

impressed

Current Music: Secrets don't make friends - FFTL

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04 January 2007 @ 03:04 pm

hurling down with the worst intention

Happy New Year motherfuckers!!!!

So how are all of you doing? Well if you ask me, I am certainly good. I believe 2007 would be a good year. I could sense it people.

So classes started yesterday. No comment. I don't feel going back yet. Why? first, I could no longer talk with Alexia and Gina in the morning. Stupid time zones. No more crazy converstaions. Second, I wasn't really prepared. I still want to rest. More internet hours and more spamming please. Third, less time doing my hair. I need to keep it pretty or else bad hair day.

First day of classes. Not really good. Being so scene sometimes hurt. Since things get ugly a lot for me. Lots of people commenting about my new hair. But I know it is just a fad. Last subject suck. Stupid speech or message for the whole class. An unexpected thing did happened.

Ciao.

Current Location: hiding from firecrackers

Current Mood:

cheerful

Current Music: How To Save A Life - The Fray

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02 January 2007 @ 02:06 pm

(no subject)

( happy new year )

Current Location: daydreaming with Gina

Current Mood:

anxious

Current Music: zzzzzzzzzzzz

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31 December 2006 @ 02:02 pm

jac attack!!!!!!!!!!!1

December 29, 2006 = best day ever

Current Location: reminiscing bout the greatest online sleepover ever

Current Mood:

bouncy

Current Music: sound of the banging keyboard

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28 December 2006 @ 01:54 pm

and you are the one who's lying here close to me

Hello it's me again. Haha got nothing to post. I am so bored. I miss Alexia & gina right now they are my bestest friends ever. Haha I met them *not really met them* in the LD Forums. And I talked with DK a while ago haha!

( convo like whoa! )

Alexia is so awesome haha! I love her & also gina!!!!

( more )

bye!

Current Location: what's a location anyway?

Current Mood: awake

Current Music: The Rescue - American Hi-Fi

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